why now???

I want to explain why I have decided to share my story. Why I have decided to dig up all my past and expose myself. There are several reasons. I have been praying about this for quite some time!

I know that there are people out there that have or are going through very similar situations. I am hoping by sharing where I have been & where I am now, will be a testimony to how AMAZINGLY FAITHFUL GOD IS! I have spent a lot of time trying to think of a way that I can minister thru what I have been through! I want to be able to be up front and completely honest about my life. I know that a lot of the stuff that I will be sharing will be very hard for some people to read & hear. I don't choose to write about my life to HURT ANYONE or EXPOSE them. I just want to be able to fully express the situations as I lived them and show that through that God was always there.

At many points in my life I chose not to involve HIM! I had a many years where I tried to drown out what I knew was the TRUTH! I have hurt many people because of my choices, I had made it harder for myself as well! Yet the LORD was always CONSTANT! It has taken me many years, and a lot of pain and sadness to see how very close I became to losing it all. I know now that even though I gave up so many times, HE never gave up on me!

I can't really put into words how very much the LORD has revealed himself to me lately. I guess I made the final decision to share my story this past Sunday. Our pastor said that we needed to stop waiting for someone to tell us where to minister from, and to just DO IT! I heard what he was saying like a massive drum. My heart was so filled with the desire to do what I know the LORD has been putting on my heart for quite some time now! Thus I started this BLOG!

I know it may seem like a weird way to minister, but I feel like by me publicly exposing my story no matter how hard it may be for me to do so, that maybe just one person or maybe more. Might read this and they will be able to relate, & that they can see the message behind it all! The message is, that no matter where you come from, no matter what you have done, no matter how unforgivable you believe you are, there is a GOD! he loves you, he wants to give you PEACE! All you have to do is ask for it!